Tuesday, April 3, 2012


I hate crime of any kind. I hate guns. I hate the lack of respect due to the color of one's skin. I saw a story of a young man, killed dead. He was in his own community, minding his own business, and he was gunned down. The media, when informed, ran the story. It was about a young man named Trayvon Martin. The black communities were outraged. How dare this individual shoot this kid and get away with murder? Yes, I was hurt as well. Hurt that this young man had died. But, I hurt every time I hear of blacks being killed by gunfire. I wonder why the communities don't cry out bloody murder or revenge when this takes place daily in their own communities? The gangs, thugs, and drug dealers run rampant. They curse. They refer to the men as ni**as and women as bit**es. They even speak to their children this way. How can you expect the nation to respect you when you don't respect one another. I really wonder if the number of slaves killed during slavery, is lower than the number of blacks losing their life to the modern day crime. People are being raped, robbed, tortured, bullied, and killed. No one is saying anything. No one is taking a stand. People are more consumed with their attire, hair style, jewelry, and cars than their neighbors and communities. I pray that blacks seek God and join in unity. Choose your battles wisely. Yes, demand justice for Trayvon, but also demand justice for all who die due to unnecessary violence. Psalms 50: 20-22 You sit and speak against your brother: you slander your own mother's son. These things you have done, and I kept silence: you thought that I was altogether such an one as yourself: but I will reprove you, and set them in order before your eyes. Now consider this, you who forget God, lest I tear you in pieces, and there be none to deliver.

Repent. Quit putting faith in politicians, police, and in people. Put faith in God. Once you grow in the Lord and be obedient, He will lead you. He will protect your front and your rear. Trust in Him, talk to Him, He answers questions. He is God and He loves us all. All races, cultures, ethnicity's..............He love us equally. Why can we not do the same?

Sunday, April 1, 2012


 People today are so angry. Someone cuts you off in traffic, your child messes up in school, your boss upsets you at work, the waiter messes up your order, you and a friend disagree on a topic........... These are things that occur. It's life. You should not let small things of this nature upset your entire day and destroy relationships. Proverbs 14:29 says "He who is slow to wrath is of great understanding: but he who is hasty of spirit exalts folly." Words are powerful. During a fit of rage anger consumes you. Words are spoken that can't be taken back, fights erupt, and lives are destroyed. There is so much violence and murder in the world today. Anger can result in death.

I am so glad God delivered me. There is still much need for improvement. However, I remember many days of arguing and acting a fool. Not to mention if I had consumed alcohol. I was a mess. Many days I have done things that I would later regret. Only if I had control of my anger, I would not have responded the way that I had.

I look at the world today. I am the parent of a male child who is 17. We are African Americans. We live in Orlando. I feel so sad and frightened by the things I see in the world today. Especially things regarding the death of Trayvon Martin. Zimmerman, the murderer, acted in a fit of rage and a young man's life was taken. He has to now regret his actions. He killed an innocent young man. I wonder if African Americans will demand justice for the many lives lost daily. When the thugs, gangbangers, and drug dealers are out on the block and babies, teens, young adults, adults, and senior citizens are getting shot, they are silent. There is a law on the street that says "you don't snitch". It is horrid what they did to Trayvon. It is horrid that the police shoot first and ask questions later. Demand justice for Trayvon Martin. But also demand justice and peace in your homes, schools, neighborhoods, and communities. Quit hating one another but unite in love and stand for righteousness. Grow in God, plead the blood of Jesus, repent! Don't put faith in men. Quit relying on politicians, pastors, and the media to save you. Have faith in God your Father. Be slow to anger. Trust in God and be obedient. Just try this, please just try this. Vengeance is the Lord's. He will repay.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012


I smoked weed, cigarettes, drank hard liquor, fornicated, committed adultery, watched porn, masturbated, was worldly, and so many things I did were not pleasing to God. I remember when the Lord delivered me. I was home. For the past week I'd been saying when I'm done with this pack of cigarettes I won't buy anymore. However, I would. One Sunday, the good Lord came to me. The Holy Spirit said," the cigarettes you have and the blunt you have, flush it down the toilet." Of course, my flesh didn't want to do this. Then the Holy Spirit said, "You've been asking to be delivered. Yet you won't do what I tell you to. Do you know that I can strike you down and suck the life out of your body?". I immediately was filled with fear. I flushed the cigarettes and weed down the toilet. I sat there and looked at the toilet. I couldn't believe what I had just done. The Holy Spirit came back to me and said, "Remember Lot's wife." If you read the bible you know the story of Sodom and Gomorrah. You know the story of Lot's wife. God had delivered her. She looked back at the city being destroyed and turned into a pillar of salt. See, her heart still desired the sin nature and God destroyed her. It has been four months since I have not smoked and drank. My entire life is now seeking God. I no longer listen to worldly music, worldly television programs. I praise the Lord. I go to church faithfully. I have an awesome church home. I pay my tithes. In addition to this, God has opened my spiritual eyes. I see how the programs watched on television are programming people's minds. I pray so I'm not preyed upon. I build my relationship with God daily. I ensure that I pray every morning, every night, read my bible, talk to God during the day and just give praise, honor, and worship to my creator.


I wonder why the world is the way it is. Why does ignorance and racism still exist? Recently, God delivered me. He set me free. He delivered me from a life of sin. Now, I only desire to seek and to know Him. I was reading an article online about the little girl Rue in the movie Hunger Games. Soooo many people were upset that this girl was black. Many horrible things were said. People were tweeting all types of racist comments. Their pictures were on the site and it hurt me deeply the things I read. I wish the world wasn't like this. However, I know that God is real. I know His angels are real. Therefore, I know satan and his demons are real as well.